More than thirty years after the death of her father, Charlotte Gainsbourg remains marked by this mourning. She reveals what helped him exorcise his pain.
“My father’s death broke me so much…“It is with sincerity and emotion that Charlotte Gainsbourg evokes the terrible ordeal she had to overcome when she was not yet twenty years old. 31 years ago, Serge Gainsbourg died following yet another heart attack , leaving a huge void in the heart of his daughter. This immeasurable pain, Charlotte Gainsbourg tried to exorcise it by writing. “Before writing [ses] music texts“, the singer and actress – currently starring in the film by Mikhaël Hers, Passengers of the night – kept a diary. “I often wrote to complain, to talk about the lack of my father“, she confides in the columns of the Parisian this Wednesday, May 4.
Something to help her mourn. And having fun:I put the funniest passages or which concerned my children on the left page so as not to piss them off if they ever find these newspapers“. Ultimately, Charlotte Gainsbourg has stopped writing her anger, her sorrows and her joys in a diary when she wrote her songs. “I’m not a great poet, I’m more into spontaneity“, considers the main interested party. The writing therefore allowed her to put down what she felt at the time of the loss of Serge Gainsbourg. A death that upset her so much that she “can not [se] reinvent immediately“.
Charlotte Gainsbourg, forced to immerse herself in the memory of her father
“I walked a path with yvan [Attal, son mari, ndlr], but it was parallel to grief. Then, with Yvan and with each child, I built myself“, details Charlotte Gainsbourg. A long path strewn with pitfalls that she had to cross once again during the loss of her sister, Kate Barry. “Thanks to a kind of exile, I rebuilt myself with my children, elsewhere, and then I came back“, she explains. A sometimes painful return to Paris “because of the memories of what Paris could have been and is no longer for me“. As Gainsbourg’s house prepares to open its doors to the public, Charlotte Gainsbourg has immersed herself in the memory of her father. “I really have to barricade myself, be strong to take it on“, she concludes. Maybe writing will help her through this ordeal again.
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Charlotte Gainsbourg
She was not yet twenty when she had to go through this terrible ordeal
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31 years ago, Serge Gainsbourg died of yet another heart attack, leaving a huge void in his daughter’s heart
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Charlotte Gainsbourg
This immeasurable pain, Charlotte Gainsbourg tried to exorcise it by writing
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“Before writing [ses] musical texts”, Charlotte Gainsbourg kept a diary
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Charlotte Gainsbourg
“I often wrote to complain, to talk about the lack of my father”, she confides
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Charlotte Gainsbourg
Something to help her mourn
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Eventually, Charlotte Gainsbourg stopped writing her angers, sorrows and joys in a diary when she wrote her songs.
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The writing therefore allowed her to put down what she felt at the time of the loss of Serge Gainsbourg
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Except that for a few months, Charlotte Gainsbourg had to immerse herself in the memory of her father
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“I really have to barricade myself, to be strong to take it on”, admits Charlotte Gainsbourg