Cloud Hegenbarth
The first year as a mother was a “trauma” for her
Cloud Hegenbarth became a mother for the first time in 2019.
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Cloud Hegenbarth has been a mother for three years now. However, the first of these has taken her to the edge of her powers and beyond.
Actress Wolke Hegenbarth (42) has been the mother of a son since 2019. It is her first child – and in all probability her only one, as she now does in a detailed interview with the “Mirror” made quite clear. In the meantime she is doing “well” again, but she has suffered from the “trauma of sleep deprivation” for a long time. “I can’t imagine a second child for that reason,” she speaks openly about her feelings and apparently from the soul of many other mothers.
She received positive feedback from many women because she dared to address this supposedly taboo subject. “Many wrote to me that they cried because they finally felt understood. That’s why I want to say to all women who are in the situation right now: It’s getting better. I couldn’t imagine it, but it’s true.”
Before that, however, she had to realize that many other mothers are also going through the same physical and psychological hardships: “I felt so incredibly alone […]. I felt like I’m the only one who feels this way. No matter where you look, the story always ends with the woman having her baby and being happy.”
“No longer exists”
For the first year, her son Avi “didn’t sleep more than two hours at a time.” As soon as she tried to put her child down, it immediately woke up screaming. “He lived on me. He the koala, me the eucalyptus – that describes my first year with him.” During this time, she literally ceased to exist as an individual. Although her partner Olli “did everything that was possible” to help her, he just continued to work full-time.
Hegenbarth “fortunately […] No postnatal depression” suffered, but felt “constant overwhelm”. Even today, it “triggers” her when her now three-year-old son wakes her up several times at night: “Apparently, this massive turning point in my life has only healed superficially.” She is also correspondingly honest Conclusion on now three years as a mother: “If I had known beforehand how the first year would be, I would not have done it. Nevertheless, in retrospect, I say: I am very happy to have become a mother.”
Hegenbarth already declared in September in an interview with “Bild”that she has no problem with “lighting up the downsides” of everyday life with a baby. “For me, both are part of it. I think that a low point in a life can be told. And that was by far the hardest year of my life.”