"Dialysed, Covid19 can kill me. Should I sacrifice myself for your freedom?"

Nicolas Bedos has a very strong opinion on the management of Covid19, which he shared on Instagram this Thursday, September 24, 2020. He encourages them to resume a normal existence, without a mask and full mouth … Marjorie, who lives on dialysis , answered him.

This morning, I was doing my usual little tour on Instagram, when I came across the post of Nicolas Bedos about Covid19. I was stunned. I am 41 years old, I am the mother of 10-year-old twins and I used to work as a Pôle Emploi counselor. But today I can't anymore, because I am dialysis. Kidney failure since the age of three, I have had a transplant three times. I've been on dialysis for three and a half years and I'm waiting for a fourth transplant.

Financially, psychologically, it was already not easy. And then there was the Covid, and to that added the fear of getting sick. You should know that one in four people on dialysis die when they are affected by the virus … So when I read Mr. Bedos's Instagram post, I felt angry. I was with my mom on the phone at the time, and she said: "Leave it. The theaters are closed, he has to find a way to put on a show.". But I still wrote him a comment: how can you, when you have an influence like his, get people to stop wearing a mask and go out and have fun like before? I understand his desire for freedom, and that of all the people who have had enough … Since March, we have all been touched, we are all tired. Except for me, masks, social distancing, confinement, it's a matter of life and death. Freedom, yes, but at what cost? Should we be sacrificed, we, the most fragile, the sick, the disabled?

You should know that if the intensive care centers are overcrowded again, between me and a patient who does not have my medical background, I will not be chosen. However, I am only 41 years old, I have two children, I feel capable of living a long time and fighting. How can anyone want to deprive me of this chance?

I think deep down this post proves once again the division of our company. Some want to go out, live as before, ignore the virus … Others are afraid for their lives every day, and I am one of them. Maybe Mr. Bedos can afford to get sick, or he can just avoid it, because it's obviously easier to celebrate a birthday when you live in a big apartment or at the Ritz, easier to go to the American Hospital when you are rich and famous, rather than to the CHU of Puy-en-Velay. My father died there a few years ago, and I saw the conditions of care. Mr. Bedos also lost his father, and I sympathize, but is it the same thing to bury a loved one during a private ceremony in Corsica, or to face a coffin buried hastily in a cemetery in Rungis, as was the case at the height of the pandemic?

I have read Mr. Bedos's responses to the fact that he has lost loved ones. I am sorry. But I think of this woman from Haiti with whom I am on dialysis. One suffers from diabetes in his family, part of which lives in the United States. There, she lost ten relatives. Ten! It’s a cataclysm for an individual!
I also saw the "applause" emojis and thanks from the rich and famous under this Instagram post. Clearly, we don't have the same life. Don't think I don't want us to trade! I too would like to go to parties, to the theater… All that, I take! But in the meantime, I must above all protect myself, and I am not the only one. Today, my response has gone viral, it is echoed everywhere by people with disabilities, patient associations … These are the people we must hear.