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I love the way you stared at me the very first time. This air of defiance mixed with a clear attraction. Then the way later you put your lips on me. With care, delicacy. Imbued with a certain clumsiness. Upon your contact, I burst into flames on the spot. You propel me up to the firmament. It's alchemical, intense and fleeting. A moment tinged with grace.

Unfortunately, you have someone. A high school girl who doesn't like me. Whatever. I'll let you lose yourself in his arms again. In the meantime, I shudder, consume myself under other fingers. I stoke your jealousy and your envy. You are my target, you are my prey. But it's important that you come back to me by choice.

At the beginning, our relationship is formed on furtive meetings in the evenings. Behind your girlfriend's back, with whom it's already complicated. I find that you approach me more easily when you are soaked. Alcohol betrays your true affinity.

Finally, you decide to leave her. At the same time, it is towards me that your steps guide you. I light up instantly. In your eyes, no trace of regret. Only this flame that shines. I rejoice in secret. That night, we seal our osmosis in the fire of passion. Intoxicating sensation to evaporate, to go up in smoke. Impression of becoming one with you. Then with the entire Universe.

By my side, you reveal yourself to be daring, carefree, alive. You finally feel free to do what you want. To be whoever you want. Everything is possible. Where the other was castrating, I present myself as a savior. I make you Man. I materialize this breath of peace that you were waiting for.

I am there on a daily basis in good times and in bad. Supporting. Soothing. Helpful. I'm there when you fail your license. When you break down in tears at the deaths of your family. The only one who remains anyway your friends desert.

And despite all these years of loyalty, I see you who doubts, who suffer. Sometimes you just walk away without a look. More and more often. You would like to banish me from your life. Whereas it is I, inevitably, who consumes me every time. It is my ashes that spread to the four winds when you leave me.

Even today, you dare to say that I am suffocating you. You judge our relationship to be toxic. You say I'll end up making you sick. You talk about breaking up, stopping. For good this time.

My poor love. You repeat it so frequently that it is even more believable. I'm not one of those you can easily leave, you know. I have instilled in you the seed of the Eternal Return. You ignore the power of my determination. I never give up an empire. Never. You are too steeped in to let you go back. You and me will be until death.

So come on, turn me on one more time. Take me to your lips. Set me ablaze. Let's start our final dance in the flame of your lighter.

Inhale, tonight, what you think is your last cigarette.