Paul El Kharrat is back on paper with his new book Welcome to my world (released October 12, 2022 by Harper Collins Editions). A book in which the young man diagnosed with Asperger autism opens the doors to his world. On this occasion, the former champion of the 12 noon shots (TF1) confided in our colleagues fromParis here, and revealed that he has already thought of the worst.
In their October 19 edition, our colleagues wanted to know if it was easy to be in your head. “It’s anything but simple! My brain is constantly in turmoil, it’s exhausting. I often take refuge in dreams to escape others and the heaviness of the world. Sometimes they are dark and I have already thought of committing the irreparable“, thus replied the member of the Big heads (RTL). And to explain that for eight days, he stayed in a clinic rest last February. “I’m so whole the falsehood of some hurts me and generates extreme violence. I am the paragon of Doctor Jekkyl and Mr. Hyde. I constantly fight against this split personality, this duality. It’s not because I smile that I’m happy“, continued Paul El Kharrat.
He must also constantly explain his syndrome, especially to his parents, which exhausts him even more. But he knows it, “the slightest ‘error’ is prone to nervous breakdownsphases of intense annoyance and great verbal violence“. A situation that makes everyone suffer.”But what they don’t understand is that they suffer less than me“, he clarified.
Paul El Kharrat went on to reveal that his parents make him feel guilty at such times. “My parents failed to fully educate me according to the precepts of society. They got there with my brother (20 years old) and my sister (16 years old), but I can’t be trained. It’s impossible for me to blend in. Sometimes I wish someone would adapt to me“, he concluded.