Why do you go to bed with a forgiven man? For "Mamamia" an Australian wrote down her story – movingly honest!
Sex with a married man? For many a no-go, for others "not their responsibility". A 21-year-old Australian wrote down her experiences for the "Mamamia" portal – and at the end made a moving appeal to all women.
"I knew we were going to have sex soon"
She met her affair, a 32-year-old man, in a bar. His manner, his green eyes … She found him immediately attractive and charming. Already at the first conversation he said that he was married, at the next meeting (again in the bar) he talked a lot about his wife. Nevertheless, he flirted, the two got closer and exchanged numbers. "When I gave him my number, I knew we would have sex soon," writes the Australian. At first they just made appointments, went to the cinema – and kissed.
It happened just a few days later: even if the 21-year-old knew it was wrong, she slept with him in his car. "It was the best sex of my life!" From then on, the two saw each other almost every day, always in secret, and feelings soon came into play: "I was in love with a man whom I had to hide because my friends were horrified."
"I started seeing other men – but he wanted me exclusively"
At some point the 21-year-old said "I love you" – and he replied, but took it back a few days later. The Australian suffered – she was in love with a man who would never really be with her. She felt bad because she couldn't get away from him, knowing full well that he had another wife on the side, while in the event of a separation she would have been all alone. "I started to see other men and I wasn't that naive anymore," says the Australian. "I kept it from him because he wanted me to be alone".
Out of frustration, she kept confronting him about being married and he began to ignore her calls – then suddenly appeared in between. Too much for the 21 year old: "I finished it!"
"That wasn't love!"
Years later, the Australian sees things more clearly. The sadness, the rejection, the lies … it was all a bad time for her. And she realizes: "That wasn't love, it was something out of lust, emptiness and sadness that we had." Would she do it again? Under no circumstance! And she wants to warn others: "Don't expose yourself to this heartache and torture, it's not worth it"!
You can read the full story on Mamania.com.
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