The interpreter of Christelle Moreno in Tomorrow belongs to us (Monday to Friday at 7:10 p.m. on TF1) talks about her fight against bulimia in a poignant book*. And reveals a heavy family secret…
Why did you decide to tell your fight against bulimia through a book?
Ariane Seguillon : When I started to lose weight, I received so many messages from people in pain that I said that I had been bulimic. There, I go further, I say what I had never said. If my book can help even one person, I will be delighted.
You have suffered a lot!
When we weigh more than a hundred kilos, we suffer. The tendons in my ankles couldn’t take it. We are forced to gain momentum to get up in the morning. Once, in front of people, the chair broke under my weight. It is a terrible humiliation.
Your first piece of advice is to consult a psychiatrist…
No diet, no operation works if we do not treat ourselves upstream. You can do sleeves (operation consisting of removing part of the stomach, editor’s note) and lose only five kilos, if you then continue to eat in small quantities but all day long. I came across an extraordinary shrink who categorically forbade me to have surgery before treating my bulimia. I don’t want to give people false hope.
What was the trigger for you to treat yourself precisely?
First, my son (Dorian, member of the band Ofenbach, editor’s note) who noticed one day that all the packages of cakes had disappeared from the cupboard in 24 hours. I denied. I even lied to my son. My brother’s death in 2018 was also an electric shock. I realized that I was killing myself. When you eat six baguettes in a row, five camemberts, you can have a heart attack. I went very, very far in my delusions, emptying fridges where there was nothing left. I ate anything. Mustard, everything. Bulimia is an addiction.
The other highlight of the book is a heavy family secret. Who explains your bulimia, triggered in 2015, when your brother Benjamin told you about his cancer…
My brother was repeatedly raped as a child by one of our paternal uncles. In this book, I denounce this man. Before he died, my brother wrote a wonderful book about it called The Lucky Son (Equateur ed., editor’s note). I hope my little notoriety will do him justice.
When your brother revealed this abuse to your family, as with the Kouchners, no one filed a complaint against this uncle, brother of journalist Pierre-Luc Séguillon…
No, my brother, around 10 years old, spoke out so that one of our cousins would not be a victim of the monstrous tortures of this pedophile. I have always felt immense guilt for failing to protect my brother. I actually tried to kill my uncle by throwing a flowerpot over his head. I just missed him and people in my family, who didn’t know yet, said I was jealous because he gave my little cousins a lot of presents…
Did you know the horror of what your brother was going through?
No, but I remember one night seeing him and my brother come out of a room. And I have in mind the lost look of my brother that I had never seen him. I still don’t know today if it’s a nightmare or if it’s the truth.
Do you blame your family for having swept this heavy secret under the rug?
I forgave them but I don’t forget. As for that bad guy, he died without an excuse for anyone.
*The big, Flammarion editions, in bookstores on March 9.
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