Sarah Biasini
Her mother’s death still hurts
Sarah Biasini, daughter of Romy Schneider
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Romy Schneider’s daughter talks about the few memories of her mother and the pain that still lingers.
The daughter of Romy Schneider (1938-1982), Sarah Biasini (44), wrote about the death of her mother in her novel “The Beauty of Heaven”, which will be published at the end of October. In a passage, the now 44-year-old describes how she experienced the anniversary of her mother’s death as a four-year-old.
According to a passage quoted by “Bunte”, in an unsupervised moment, she peered through the keyhole into the room where her mother was being looked after by the paramedics. “I see a big sofa, someone is lying on it, and a huge spider that covers the body with its legs. A childhood memory. The spider legs are the paramedics who took care of them.”
Hardly any memories of her mother
This memory is one of the few, as she also writes: “I pretend I don’t want to share the memories of my early childhood, but in truth I have none or very few, I don’t remember them anymore. I’m almost ashamed Me for it. You accuse yourself of not remembering. As if it wasn’t normal. As if I couldn’t be your daughter if I didn’t remember anything. “
In the “Bunte” interview, Biasini also describes how the death of her mother bothered her to this day: “Whenever I think of my mother, what happens every day, it is simply painful. Simply because she is dead and about death thinking is painful. ” Questions were also repeatedly raised: “How would our relationship be today if she were still there? How would she be as a grandma?” The actress and author is sure that the pain will never go away.
Worry to the last breath
Her book is also about her own child and motherhood. After “long years of hope”, the pregnancy in 2017 finally worked out. But even during motherhood, she is persecuted by the death of her brother and mother. “So many worries! I’ve had too many encounters with death in my life. In my first few weeks as a mother I was very afraid. For the baby, for myself.” She has now accepted that she will worry until her last breath.
But the birth of her daughter, whom she describes as the greatest adventure of her life, also changed a lot in her. “You also discover an incredible strength in yourself. As a mother, you could kill someone for your child. You want to be a better person for your child.”